Campus Life’s Student Diversity and Inclusion staff are proud to present the 2020 Lavender Award winners!!

The Emerging Student Leader is an LGBTQ+-identified student who is early in their academic career at UMBC who has at least one year left until graduation. This student has been involved and has already made an impact at UMBC in their short time here. The recipient of this award is someone who we can expect to see a lot more of for the upcoming year.

The recipient of this award is one of the strongest LGBTQ advocates on campus and their motivation stems from a need to build a better future for trans and non-binary folks. From volunteer to intern in the Women's Center, they have helped revive the Spectrum program and have breathed new life into the group. Her contributions go beyond relationship building and into community empowerment as she works with all a manner of UMBC faculty, staff, and students to create a better, affirming campus.

This year’s Emerging Student Leader Award winner is: Autumn Cook. Autumn (pronouns she/her/they/their) is a junior Meyerhoff Scholar (M29), pursuing a BS in Chemistry and a BA in Gender, Women and Sexuality Studies dual degree. Autumn is currently a student intern at the Women’s Center.

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The recipient of the Service to the LGBTQ+ Community Awardconsistently shows a dedication to serving LGBTQ+ people at UMBC or in the greater LGBTQ+ community. This person recognizes the challenges unique to many LGBTQ+ people and seeks to contribute to LGBTQ+ communities facing these challenges through service. The person’s passion for service is evident to all those who surround them.

This award winner made extensive contributions to the UMBC community in a very short time. A tireless advocate and educator, he has increased the University Health Services & Counseling staff's multicultural awareness in understanding the needs of  LGBTQ+ students. He also successfully organized an LGBTQ+ resource fair which included booths for name changes, haircuts, general health resources, and HRT & surgery resources. Furthermore, he has been offering Trans Support Group this academic year. His passion and care for the LGBTQ+ community showed itself through his outstanding service provisions. 

This year’s Service to the LGBTQ+ Community Award winner is: Ethan Swift. Ethan (pronouns he/him/they/their) is currently one of the Counseling Center’s Doctoral Interns. He recently accepted a permanent position as Staff Psychologist at the Counseling Center that will begin August 10th.

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The Outstanding LGBTQ+ Ally may be LGBTQ+-identified or not but has made a commitment to supporting LGBTQ+ individuals on campus this year. This person has worked to support the LGBTQ+ community on campus in addition to their other academic and co-curricular commitments. If LGBTQ+-identified, this person has made efforts to help other identity groups in the community.

This award winner is a member of the LGBTQ community and an ally to all. As a non-binary person of color and an activist, they are constantly working towards intersectional approaches to complex problems on our campus. Their strong, high ideals paired with their seemingly unending energy make them a force to be reckoned with. 

This year’s Outstanding LGBTQ+ Ally Award winner is: Kay Hinderlie, Class of 2020. Kay (pronouns they/them) is a Psychology major and Women’s Center student staff.

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The LGBTQ+ Student of the Yearis an LGBTQ+ identified student that has made a lasting contribution to the LGBTQ+ community here at UMBC. This person is influential and strong. A person nominated for this award will embody the idea that service is something that is ongoing and should be reflective of the needs of the LGBTQ+ UMBC community.

This award winner has an incredible heart and passion for service. They have been instrumental in creating initiatives that center trans and non-binary people and have also been one of the strongest voices for non-binary and trans inclusion in both Residential Life and UMBC's classrooms. 

This year’s LGBTQ+ Student of the Year Award winner is: Sam Hertl, Class of 2020. Sam (pronouns they/them) is a Social Work major and intern at the Women’s Center. 

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The Lavender Legacy Award is awarded to an LGBTQ+-identified person who has left a timeless impact on the UMBC LGBTQ+ community. This person has gone above and beyond by demonstrating signs of leadership in the LGBTQ+ community either by demonstrating signs of courage, compassion or common courtesy. This award may go to any current or past staff, faculty, student and/or aluma/us who's priceless contribution to UMBC's LGBTQ+ community echoes the celebration of diversity our institution is known for.

Dating back to when she was the program management specialist for Gender + Women's Studies, she has been active with the LGBTQ community of UMBC in every way imaginable. From formal positions with the LGBTQ Faculty and Staff Association to being the person that all LGBTQ folks can flock to when they first start UMBC and need help navigating the not-so-intuitive system that exists, she is an asset to our community. She is a mentor, a friend, an ally, and--when need be--a fire starter who can get things done efficiently and effectively. Her work often goes unnoticed by virtue of her expertise in logistics and planning, but nonetheless her work and her contributions deserve recognition. 

This year’s Lavender Legacy Award winner is: Elle Trusz. Elle (pronouns she/her/hers) is a Business Manager at Maryland Institute for Policy Analysis and Research (MIPAR). Elle is also Staff Chair for the LGBTQ Faculty and Staff Association.

Congratulations to all of the 2020 Lavender Award winners!

Thank you to everyone who submitted nominations, and to those who were part of the nomination process. This year’s Lavender Nominations Committee Members: Vicki Sipe, Catalog and Metadata Librarian in the AOK Library; Bri Gumbs, Program Coordinator in the Women’s Center; James Serini and Sofia Encarnacion - two of our 2019-2020 Campus Life Diversity and Inclusion Peers and Heidy George, Program Associate for Student Diversity and Inclusion. 

This post was written by Carlos A. Turcios 15’, 17’ M.A. (he/him/his), Coordinator for Student Diversity and Inclusion. Carlos is also a Senator on the Professional Staff Senate and Treasurer of the Chapter of Black and Latino Alumni. During his spare time, he enjoys playing with his dogs and has currently been playing (a lot of) Animal Crossing New Horizons.

*Trigger Warning: Includes hate-based language, bullying, and experiences of homophobia and racism. 

College isn’t easy. Admittedly, I reminisce about some of my favorite classes but being a student can involve long nights, lots of studying, and an insurmountable amount of internal pressure to succeed. These experiences as a student become exacerbated when you have pressures tied to your identities - for me that was specifically being a 1st-generation American/college student and a queer person of color (QPOC). 

However, I would never trade this experience for another. UMBC holds a special place in my heart because it was the first place that I felt fully seen for who I was as a person. I’ve been recently reminded of how special our campus is to me after reconnecting with so many of my LGBTQ+ friends during our COVID-19 quarantining.  

Those that are close to me  know that from the third grade, I was bullied mercilessly because of my masculinity...or lack thereof. I still remember being sucker punched and called a f*gg*t by the other boys at school simply because I did not have the mannerisms of a “man.” My parents noticed that I lost the drive to go to school. My parents eventually stepped in by contacting the schools but due to their limited English skills, they didn’t get very far. The school’s response instead was to put me into my own corner in the back of the classroom.

As a kid in the late 90s/early 2000s, positive portrayals of LGBTQ+ characters/celebrities were basically non-existent to me. This was before the widespread use of social media that facilitated communication with other LGBTQ+ folks. As I got older, I was not fully aware of my gay identity but I knew that I was different than the other boys. I was scared to talk about this with my parents. I felt ashamed to share what I was feeling because clearly my identity was “wrong” and “bad,” otherwise I wouldn’t have been bullied. By the time I got to high school, the majority of the bullying had stopped. However, I had internalized the experiences I had from the 3rd-8th grade so much so that I withdrew from others and had a very limited number of friends. Others probably viewed me as awkward or introverted, but inside I wasn’t happy about what I was feeling. 

Fortunately, my high school counselor saw that I was struggling and served as a mentor to me as I was going through the first stages of my queer identity development process. I was finally able to share my identity with someone and it felt liberating. After a few months of meeting with her, I finally mustered up the courage to come out to my parents. I wrote a letter and it didn’t go well. My parents didn’t want to accept it because they were scared of the potential danger I could encounter as a gay man. During my time in high school, I developed close friendships with other students who were great allies. They  were the first peers who I came out to in my junior year of high school. As the following year progressed, my parents came not only to accept me but also become my biggest supporters (Admittedly, it was still super awkward having them meet my first boyfriend at age 17). I eventually graduated high school and got accepted into UMBC. 

UMBC was a culture shock for me. Not racially, but from an LGBTQ+ standpoint, It was the first time that I knew what it meant to have community. It was the first place that I was able to fully explore my identities and integrate them into who I have become today. Most importantly, it was the first place that I felt safe. I was able to meet some of my best friends. I did experience some academic challenges at UMBC but they were connected to my first-gen college student, second-gen immigrant identity, and some personal unexpected health and financial challenges in my family. These challenges could have been easier to navigate if I didn’t have the unnecessary feeling of embarrassment to ask for help. This cost me taking an additional year of school. Regardless, I recognize the privilege it has been to have access to a post-secondary education. But I digress, that is for another post. In the end, I was able to finally graduate and attend the second Lavender Celebration. It was really nice to know that I was sharing this celebratory milestone with my peers. 

Throughout my many years at UMBC, I have been able to get two bachelor’s, a masters, a certificate, and been a staff member while still taking courses for my continued educational growth. One of my main roles (previous to Heidy George’s arrival) was planning the Annual Lavender Celebration. I planned the 4th-6th Lavender Celebrations with the assistance of our past student interns/peers and the rest of the Student Diversity and Inclusion staff. This also could have not been done without the student, alumni, staff, and faculty members that have spoken at our annual celebrations and volunteered in the award selection process, supported our marketing and promotion, and speaking at our annual celebrations. Our students have joked in our office about how much I pay attention to detail when it comes to creating the color scheme for the decor, the program, the awards, and other key parts that make the program possible. I confess that I do enjoy seeing all the Lavender for the day. However, I put a lot of energy into this event because I wanted to celebrate our newer graduates. 

Today, my parents, my friends, and my partner Josh have become my main support system and have been my biggest cheerleaders in both my academic and professional careers. 

Although my experiences as a queer kid bring back a lot of the pain and something that should be acknowledged, I don’t want to be pitied. This is an experience that is very personal to me yet one that unfortunately I know I am not alone in. Instead, I, like everyone else, deserve to be celebrated. This celebration goes beyond me, our office, and our campus. It’s about celebrating the fact that LGBTQ+ people persevere in attaining their degrees, despite the sociopolitical barriers placed on us because of our sexual/romantic orientation and/or gender identity/expression. Like I said in the beginning, college isn’t easy, but we should take the time to honor all the work we did to make it through our journey. 

So you may be wondering “what I can do to be a better ally?” or “how can I show my support for a graduating LGBTQ+ student?” Well, now that you know more about my coming out story,  I encourage you to come to our 7th Annual Lavender Celebration. I know things look a little different this year, but we hope that we can create a similar communal feel through a virtual experience. I want to give a special shout out to Heidy George, Program Associate for Student Diversity and Inclusion and Amelia Meman, Assistant Director of the Women’s Center for taking the lead on planning this year’s celebration. It has been an honor to be part of the 2017-2019 Lavender Celebration planning process.

This is just my story and connection to the Lavender Celebrations/Ceremonies/Graduations happening across campuses globally. If you want to know more about its history, I encourage you to visit this link. As for those who are struggling or know someone who is struggling, I encourage you to reach out to our staff (i.e. Campus Life’s Mosaic, Interfaith, and Pride Centers) or seek help either through the UMBC Counseling Center, UMBC’s Women’s Center, or National LGBTQ+ Hotlines such as the Trevor Project, GLBT National Help Center. Don’t be embarrassed because you may be struggling or falling behind. I can attest that there are countless staff and faculty members that care about you not only as a student but as a person. 

Remember that you matter, you are valued, and that you are loved. 

Greetings fellow hunkerdowners!

This year marks the Seventh Annual Lavender Awards Celebration. The Lavender Awards celebrate the wonderful achievements of UMBC's LGBTQ+ graduating seniors, graduate students, and their allies. We recognize students as well as the allied alums, staff, faculty, and programs that work to support them. Although we are not able to host any festivities on campus this spring, we believe that there is still a lot to celebrate about our beautifully resilient LGBTQ+ community. Please mark your calendars for a virtual celebration on Tuesday, May 19th at 1pm.

This year’s virtual Lavender Celebration will include a welcome address, keynote speaker, slideshow of pictures and reflections from our graduating students, presentation of the Lavender Awards and farewell messages from staff, faculty, and students.

If you are an LGBTQ+ graduating senior or graduate student (graduating Winter 2019 or Spring 2020), you still have time to submit your photographs, reflections, and mailing address to receive your lavender cord by visiting the following link.

If you have any questions, please do not hesitate to contact Heidy George at hmg@umbc.edu. 

This year’s celebration is brought to you by Campus Life’s Student Diversity & Inclusion and the Women’s Center. We look forward to celebrating some of our best and brightest with you!

This post is written by Sofia Encarnacion, a Diversity & Inclusion Peer at the Mosaic Center. Sofia is a sophomore Economics and Mathematics major. In her spare time, she likes to play Animal Crossing. When the semester ends, she will finally watch Avatar the Last Airbender.

“It’s just absurd. What it tells you is this: You are expendable. You’re nothing. You’re nobody.” 

My dad has been working 60 hours a week at a well-known, national company. His work involves manual labor and a lot of standing. There have been several confirmed cases of COVID-19 at this particular center, but management will not share information on which departments may be affected. My dad turned 60 years old last month. He works the night shift, with hours from 8pm to 6am. Sometimes more.

“I just seem to face life the same way anyway, so this is not a strange thing for me. This is the way life has always been for me, so what’s the difference? There is no difference. Since I have to survive and I’m living and breathing I have no choice,” he said. The company  has been paying workers double for any hours over 40 hours a week.

This conversation was really difficult to have. I get to live somewhat comfortably with my brother in his apartment in this safe Rockville neighborhood while my dad spends every moment either sleeping or working. I’ll be honest, this is not the first time I’ve seen my dad work this hard. I -like most people- don’t have a perfect relationship with my dad, but I still care about him deeply. 

He was working the night shift before the pandemic hit. Every time I’d see him, he’d be tired. He spent a lot of Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays sleeping due to his unconventional schedule. Financial stability was never a reality for us and his employer has taken advantage of that. It hurts to see him like this: absent, exhausted, and thinner than I’ve ever seen him.

When we talked on the phone, Bernie Sanders had just suspended his U.S. Presidential campaign. It felt like the most hopeless conversation. My whole family has been rooting for Bernie. My dad taught us to be involved in politics at an early age. I have been listening to his lectures about the Iraq War since I was 8 years old. I have to credit him in his attempts to keep us not only informed, but passionate about issues that matter to us. When we talked on the phone, I didn’t hear his usual resentment towards an unjust system. It was a defeated tone. I can’t blame him. Who has the energy to be angry while also dealing with the anxiety of a pandemic as an essential worker?

We also talked about the word “essential”. I made a comment on how we call workers essential but we treat them like they’re disposable. “Well that’s how we treat soldiers too, isn’t it?” This led to a conversation about America’s economic interests versus the survival of its people. Which made me think that he’s right. Some things haven’t really changed.

So what can I or you do about this, especially now?  I believe that the only way we can prevent this continued sacrifice of America’s low income residents is to vote in politicians who value the American people as people and not based on what they can provide the economy. Right now, everything is very depressing, but let me leave you with this quote: “Let this moment radicalize you rather than lead you to despair.”

A photo of my dad posing for the family group chat in his work clothes:

Heidy George is the Program Associate for Student Diversity and Inclusion. When she manages to find spare time, she likes to take dance classes and HGTV her living room.

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I am very much aware of my privilege. I also know that I have many things to be grateful for. And yet, I’m not going to lie…I am struggling. No, like, really struggling. 

Before starting my position at UMBC, I was recuperating from an eleven-month stint as a stay-at-home mom. The experience was simultaneously euphoric and debilitating. For eleven months, I watched in awe: as my baby grew, hit all her milestones and explored the world around her. I held her when she cried, changed what seemed like an impossible amount of diapers and learned how to function without sleep. I am not exaggerating. I no longer know what sleep is. I hear people talk about it and wonder, what is this mystical thing people keep mentioning? It’s as elusive as TikTok. 

But I digress. 

I read a lot of books before becoming a mom. However, the parenting books did not prepare me for any of this. They failed to mention the horrors of projectile diarrhea when your infant is sick, how your heart skips a beat when they smile at you, or that you may be parenting a toddler during a pandemic. 

I had only been working at UMBC for six months before the physical campus was closed. I was really just starting to get the hang of things when we all were informed that we would be working from home. 

After going back to work, I remember sitting at my desk and thinking, “I really miss my baby. I wish I could work from home so that I could spend more time with her.” Wait, am I responsible for all of this? I now know that being a mom means you acquire super-powers. Maybe, I need to be more specific the next time I ask the universe for something. Now I am figuring out how to juggle being a working mom and a professional in a brand new Institution - my living room.

In all honesty, I’m not sure how much more of this my body can take. My back hurts from the lack of exercise (don’t you dare tell me I can exercise at home like I don’t have a seventeen month old!). My eyes hurt from all the Webex, Zoom and Google Hangout meetings. I just may need new glasses because I am pretty sure my eyesight is deteriorating more and more each day. On the upside Aldi’s now delivers in my area and my 17-month-old now knows how to open the bathroom door. 

Yay, milestones!

When well-meaning work folk ask, “how are you?” I honestly struggle with the answer. Is it professional to say that most of the time I don’t have a solid answer? Is it professional to admit that I don’t know if I brushed my teeth this morning before our 9am call? Is it professional to say that most days I really just want my mommy? Is this blog even professional? What is professional anymore? Have I shared too much?

Going back to work was not easy but somehow not being able to go back to work is even harder.

On the toughest days, I rely heavily on a select group of family, friends and colleagues that make me laugh and are able to hold all of my emotions. Their support helps motivate me to push through the sadness. I guess you could call them my village. I hope you have a village to help support you through whatever this is. If not, we always have room for more.